From the past
Rise from my soul
And pool in my eyes
♥ Helena White
For Chantelle
Today I am reminded how fleeting our time here on earth truly is. It has been twenty years since my daughter Chantelle passed away…I recall a conversation with Chantelle weeks before her accident where she thought that people just forget about you after we die. Her viewpoint came from the loss of a friend, who only weeks before died from injuries suffered in a car accident. She was troubled by how seemingly everyone just continued on after the funeral. Soon after Chantelle’s accident, I vowed that I would keep her memory alive.
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I’m often asked how I continue to cope after the unthinkable happens. It is impossible to convey how lost I felt at the time, however the way that I’ve been able to break free from the bottomless pit of grief is to trust the wisdom of my intuition – my ability to know something without rational evidence that proves it to be so. Life after life. To be so sure of something, yet unable to articulate it in words. I consider that to be my greatest spiritual gift. While searching for the need to find meaning in all that happened, I have learned to also respect the mystery of it all.
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Throughout this journey I have taken many backward glances. The past is such a delicate thing. Most of the time memories are fragmented, like shards of broken glass. Then there are other times I recall moments with breathtaking clarity. These memory moments hold the beauty, the joy and the love we are all here to experience. My life is certainly different from the one I thought I would be living. Through it all I have come to realize we are here to love certain souls, unconditionally. Some we give birth to, others we meet in a serendipitous way, others are family. It is these soulful connections that I consider sacred moments that will live within us forever...like my precious angel, Chantelle Lee Lace.
Lacy ♥ Always Loved ♥ Never Forgotten
November 25, 1975 ♥ October 2, 1992
Amazing photo - credit unknown - Poem written by Helena White
My thoughts are with you, Helena. She will always live in your heart. Your beautiful girl is an angel watching over you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteThank you Ayala ❤
Deletehugs....memories are hard...and times are harder as well....my father in law had a heart attack yesterday and my wife is really struggling with it, esp having lost her mom a few years back....so this hits home for me today...
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your wife's father Brain...My thought and prayers are with you and your family ❤
DeleteI'm sending love and thoughts for you my sweet friend.. She is and will be with you forever..Watching over you with wings of an angel..Hugs, Susie
ReplyDeleteThanks Susie, your words are comforting ❤
Deletebeautiful tribute post, helena:) hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteIt is truly a work of art you have created in honor of Lacy's memory. I marvel at how much beauty is here, and how your words touch my heart. Thank you for sharing her beauty and soulful nature with us, dearest Helena.
ReplyDeletetwo years ago we lost my granddaughter Alexandra, in a car accident. I can so relate to this post. I am raising her child. He was only a baby when she died, he is 3 1/2 now.
ReplyDeleteI love the picture and poem. Thank you for sharing
Janice